What would the Bible ladies say right now?
Those voices of my childhood
Women who cared
Who taught me the stories of broken people God used anyway
In this moment where there seem no good options
And feelings are more than I can process
So much loss
So much grief
Not trusting myself or my feelings
I try to do what’s right for others
No matter how much it hurts
No matter how big the sacrifice
Selling my dream house
Losing my dream call
Leaving my home culture
Saying goodbye to loved ones
No more Mardi Gras
No more swingin’
No more changing seasons
No more how y’all doin’
My soul rips in two
Can it heal?
Will it heal?
How long will it take?
A mentor takes his own life this week
I get it
Sometimes the pain is too much to bear
No Win Scenario
Red Angel come from the future
And show me that it will be alright
That I will be able to come home again
That there will be a space for me
For now, I must wait
I must press on
I must make what I can of what I have
For those I have birthed into the world
But, the pain
It is almost too much to bear
What would those Bible ladies say
In a Kobayashi Maru?